i've had it up to HERE

my mom is being frickin ridiculous.

backstory: my mom and i made a deal where i would do yardwork and projects to earn money for my car payment. yay. two days ago she put 125 in my account. i'm close to being able to make my payment.

yesterday i gave her a massage, then we go out in the yard to work in the garden. she's a mumbler and it's REALLY REALLY hard to understand her sometimes, so i ask her to repeat what she's saying and she gets mad because she hates repeating herself. or she'll walk away while she's saying something, and you're like "wtf were you saying? i only caught half of that, plus you were mumbling."
so we're in the garden and she gives me some sort of mumbled instruction, and i can't understand her, so i repeat what i thought i heard her say, then she goes off on me about how i need to change my attitude.
what?
yeah, exactly. WHAT attitude? i had NO idea what she was talking about.
so i'm bringing her the power cord and the screws we were working with and i ask her what she was talking about and she goes off on me about all the "[sigh] [tsk] [grunt] [sigh]" during the massage!" (i honestly have no recollection of that at all) and then she goes off on how it was the worst massage she's ever had and how she tried not to move at all because she didn't want to piss me off more, "AND IT WAS MY MASSAGE!"
worst massage ever? really.
"Mom, do you want my help or not?"
"I WANT YOUR WILLING HELP!"
"Then you're going to have to stop snapping at me, or I can't help you. I didn't have an attitude problem, I don't know what you're talking about."
And she goes off again about how I need to shape up fast because my attitude isn't appreciate.
wtf? i REALLY had NO CLUE what she was talking about (sighs during a massage? really, is that what set this whole thing off?). so i tell her again that if she wants my help, she has to stop yelling at me because i won't stick around to be yelled at.
so she goes off again.
so i drop the screws and the power cord, say "here you go" and walk off.
"LETHA! WE MADE AN AGREEMENT!"
"yeah, we did, but i earned the money i needed to earn to make my payment and i WILL NOT help you if you keep acting like this."
She glares at me a moment, "...I'll take the money out of your account."
"No, you won't," and she stops for a second, "you can't. Your name isn't on my account. You can't touch my money."
And I walked off. She yells something else, and I holler back, "BYE! HAVE FUN!"
And she screams at me to never ask for her help ever again.
...oooookay.

Sighing during a massage?! REALLY?! Sighing?! Now, it couldn't just be that I was prepping into slow steady breathing, or the fact that I was working around A FREAKING QUEEN SIZED BED, or that the room was effing hot because she turned the furnace on a month early... no, it's because i have an attitude problem.
so i left. i went on a bike ride, haven't spoken to her since. and now she's taking it out on my little sister.
so i'm done. every time she pulls an overreactive stunt like this, the offendED party ends up apologizing just to keep the peace. well i'm effing done with it.
i did NOTHING to warrant that behavior, i did NOTHING to deserve her little outburst. the woman doesn't even notice that this sort of behavior is wrong. that's the first time i ever stuck up for myself, and i'm not about to back down because i did NOTHING WRONG. i've been apologizing JUST to keep the peace for YEAAAAAAARS.
so i packed my stuff and i'm staying at my best friends house until further notice.


freaking. she's ALWAYS doing crap like this. i'm tired of it.